Sep. 22, 2005 - I Give Up...

It's obvious that I just don't belong with him...

So...

In mourning of my lackadaisical and dissed mood, I will explain what happened.

I was filled with a small, tiny, itsy-bitsy boost of confidence this morning. I mean, I was so full of this extremely temporary powaa that I felt I could ask any guy to HomeComing. I was PUMPED! I was READY!!!! I--!!!!!

Chickened out as soon as I saw him in the hall...

But anyway, during lunch, I sent my friend for conformation to make sure that he wasn't going to the dance with anyone. To my surprise, he wasn't. I was so happy I jumped over the bench several times (of course with the stares and looks on people's faces that made them think "What the hell is that insane girl doing?!") But during band, my friend also recieved bad news from my *cough, eh-hem* "spy". He was hoping to go with his ex-girlfriend. My friend kept on saying "Please don't cry!" And guess what...? I didn't. I'm strong, dammit! I was going to stay strong for my audition for the school plays sake.

Besides, no matter how much I may not like it, those two look better together than him and I will ever look... and plus his girlfriend is really nice, and he deserves better than me anyway... So, I hope they have a great time at HomeComing together.

As for me, I might as well just get over it.  I'm going to follow what my English teacher says: "Always have a Plan B"...

*~Metauru