I Have a Tendency to Make Myself Laugh

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      I felt a little convicted so I had to write. What is mean is I didn’t feel like giving ya’ll an update but if I want people to comment I guess I need to produce a following… that my friends will only come with consistency. Anyway I hope you all had a relaxing and safe Memorial Day weekend! Mine was (for the most part) amazing! Saturday for the first time in… Lord knows how long I did pretty much nothing… ALL DAY. Oh the bliss. I mean I did work out (for real with cardio and everything) and wedding work (you all better appreciate the bubbles with the pink ribbons at Cheryl’s wedding) but that was it. I watched a few movies and chilled. Cheryl came over and ate her lunch and then we decided to go to a movie. Julie also came and it was fun (deja vu from elementary journal/you’d be shocked to learn a 20 year old wrote that sentence). Anyway you would be shocked at what they can get away with in a PG 13 movie nowadays. The movie was cute but there were a few parts were I was… well I saw more of Ashton Kutcher then I had ever desired too.

Sunday was cool too. Church… well the church was hot… literally. If you have ever been to my church you know that we have a huge light rack that illuminates our stage. Between the weather and the lights I was cookin. By the second song I was short of breath and dripping with sweat. It was awful. After church I went home changed and met Jess and Mel at the Hayashi’s where we then carpooled to Dave’s house to finish (or try to) the wedding invitations. I have awful handwriting and Mel’s isn’t much prettier so if you are disappointed in the calligraphy I am very sorry we did our best. After that I went home and went to sleep.

Then Monday rolls around and I am up at 8 cuz I can remember if Pastor Darnell is meeting us at 9 or 9:30 to go check out this year’s campsite. It turned out to be 9:30 but more like 10 cuz they were late. So I was up for quite sometime before I had to. Anyway a group of us went up to check out the site and it was awesome! They have so much stuff to do. The only fall back (in my mind) is that there are going to be other groups there while we are… that means that things will have to be planed with extra care this year… and with Mel unable to attend that will be a bit of a hit. But I’m sure that between Lindsay and Katie they should have no problem… just my usual pre-camp jitters.  Then I went home and changed and went to my friend Stephanie’s and hung out for a while before we went to a movie. After I left Steph’s I went home and chilled. Until the Inferno…

I love the Inferno. I’m sad because Dan is nominated again and he’s going against Landon. I like both of them so I’m torn… I hope Dan wins the life shield and sends CT or Derrick… I could do without them… they’re boring. Okay enough with the holiday weekend recap… now down to the real deal. I’m having an issue… well I have a few but this one is driving me crazy.

Have you ever had a friend who was/seemed upset with you but then when you asked them what was up they shot you down. Yeah… that’s where I’m at right now. I have tried my hardest to be open minded with this person; ***uming that maybe they were in a bad mood or just tired. I’ve tried my hardest to make sure that this wasn’t just some insecurity or wasn’t me thinking that maybe I’m just reading too much into it. I am 99.9% sure that there is something wrong. Granted there is that .01% but just hear me out here. This person will be fine in-group of people. They will laugh and tell jokes and talk to anyone and everyone. But when it’s just us in a room it’s silence. I will ask this person a question or try to strike up a conversation and only get one word or short answers… so I called Jess and asked her for advice on this situation. She told me that as soon as I could I should calmly and politely confront the person and see what was wrong. Now before I tell you what happened I have to say that I am one of those people that have to make sure everyone is happy and if someone isn’t I feel that it is my responsibility to bring them out of it if I can. So understandably I was really emotional and couldn’t even sleep well because I was upset about my friend. So as soon as I got the chance I found my friend and told them that I was sorry if I had offended them and just wanted to make sure everything was cool. Without even looking at me she said we’re fine. My friend’s tone led me to believe that we were not fine. They again insisted that I shouldn’t worry and that there was nothing wrong between us… but I beg to differ. I was so mad after that conversation. If you have a problem deal with it. Don’t ignore it and hope that your feelings whatever they are will go away. Good God… I don’t have time to deal with that crap… I feel like I’m in Jr High where people don’t know how to deal with their problems in a healthly matter. Man… why does there have to be so much drama with some people???? If you have someone in your life that you are mad at (even if it’s more your problem then theirs) talk to them. And if you don’t feel like you should talk to them about it then don’t treat them like you’re mad. Lie if you have too… but if you don’t have the guts to talk about it then change your attitude. Okay… now I’m done… I just had to get it out… in fact if any of you reading this (if anyone does) is mad at anyone feel free to express your frustrations under the comment section of my blog… you can disguise your identity if you want and you can just go off. And remember it’s okay to be mad just don’t let it get out of control.

Linz

GRRRR

2:18 PM, Jun. 7, 2005 .. Posted by Anonymous

I am so mad right now! My brother is so dramatic! He got mad because I said something nice to him and he was embar***ed by it. But it was only to two of us in the room. He makes me so mad sometimes. Then he brought up something I did that he thought was rude. It was so much that he pointed out one of my faults but how he did it. I simply told him he did a good job on a game and then I became this bad guy who is always rude!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ah, thank you for allowing me to vent!

Boy Friends

3:11 PM, Jun. 7, 2005 .. Posted by Anonymous

Ok I really need to vent. This comment has been a while in the making. Answer me this. Have you ever had a friend(that was a guy) and you tried to hang out with them without 50 stinken million people around and then all of a sudden someone (that has no life) that you just happen to know comes up and says Oh are you together? Bla Bla Bla.. It's non of your freaken biz!(scream, tarzan yell...something)
Listen here, just becasue i have a friend that is a boy does NOT mean that I have to GO OUT WITH THEM! It is perfectly ok for me to hang out with someone that is not a Christian and who I am not dating. Obviously if I’m out to eat at a fast food restaurant not a whole lot can really happen between all the burgers and fries that I am stuffing in my face.
I just wanted to make this clear for all you people that try to play matchmaker.
Stop. Please.
its obnoxious and makes me want to hit you.
Now I feel much better and i am relieved to get this off my chest. If any of you have had similar experiences please share them.

White Chocolate :)
j/k its me

Thank You

7:37 PM, Jun. 9, 2005 .. Posted by LindseyTaylor

You know I would like to thank Anonymous and White Chocolate (whoever that is???) for thier thoughtful raging. I to have a brother who is a tad dramatic so I am with you Anonymous. And White Chocolate... Good God what is wrong with stupid people? I dont know. I also hate it when you just want to be friends with boys but they ***ume just cuz your give them the time of day that you want to get with them... whats up with that??? Anyway... rage on... rage on...
LINZ

Matchmaker, Matchmaker, get a life

5:51 PM, Jun. 12, 2005 .. Posted by Sophia D

A shout out to White Chocolate. "it's obnoxious and it makes me want to hit you" describes the feeling quite acurately. Thank You. Someone else on earth feels the same way.

Also I felt as though I should interject that I have personally viewed "Mel"s handwriting and it is pretty darn good. And well spelled.