I Have a Tendency to Make Myself Laugh

This morning as I drove into work I was distracted by the weather. Sunny days always force me to reminisce on the days when I could enjoy them. Back when my job was trivial and my time was freed up to do whatever I pleased. As I was heading into Everett admiring the mountains I found myself singing the techno pop songs Julie brought home from China. We use to blast “Boom, Boom, Boom” in her explorer, while we attempted to do our interpretive dance while driving. I thought about Touch of Italy and going there to get free coffee even after I had quit. I remembered picnics with Cheryl and how we would talk about what we wanted out of life. I saw myself getting into those water fights with Wiley, which usually ended with us spraying Pepper (our dog) because he would try to eat the water.

Isn’t it funny how just one sunny day and send my mind spinning so fast that I actually believe that I’m back there at 16 with few responsibilities and little worries. Today was one of those days that I really feel like I’m grown up. Is it bad? No, not really. It is, however, a bit sad that I can’t go back to those days.

I don’t know what it is about today; but for a moment I forgot about the wedding, my doctors appointment, my job situation, my family issues, and everything else that had been stressing me out and I just enjoyed the day.

Now more than ever I realize that I’m growing up. Friends aren’t what/who the use to be. I’m not who I use to be. Work is a requirement and not an elective. Life is different and I like it; because I know that in five more years a sunny day will come and I will look back on the day when I wasn’t married, I didn’t have kids, my friends were all single and life seemed so simple.

I guess the point of this blog is simply to say: enjoy where you’re at today because after you’ve grown past it you can never go back.