Today has been a really good day. Tuesday night into Wednesday I was basically wreck. I got into a fight with my sister (Tues) and then it was a downward spiral from there. I cried on the phone with my mom for like an hour Tuesday night. Wednesday I was still a wreck, Thank God it was my day off. So I just slept all day. It was raining out so it was kind of perfect to just stay in between the sheets. I did read my bible and that made all the difference. Today, I am back to normal, I just pullled myself together and spent most of today just fixing things that were upsetting me. Right now, I feel great.

Since I was in a mood, I decided to read some Anne Rice, her Vampire Chronicals are good for my imagination to just wander and take off. Plus, a friend of mine has on his myspace profile that he is 100 years old, so my mind was stuck in the Vampire world. When I was in highschool I used to wish that one night I would wake to find Lestat sitting in my room, wanting to give me the dark gift so we could spent eternity roaming the earth. I sometimes wish that would still happen. Leave my mortal life behind and just fade away into the world.

My cousin is in a coma, and I really do not know how I feel about it, I'm kind of numb. Darnell is a great, nice, wonderful person. He doesn't deserve this and neither does my family. Life right now is just not adding up. I want to be upset about Darnell, I just can't. I guess I am going to be the strong one for the family. My older sister is not taking this well. She was very close with Darnell, she would take care of him and his brother when they would come to stay for the summer. I would do anything to take away her pain, but I can't feel anything about this whole situation. I hope that is a sign that all will be well for him. So no matter if you pray or whatever, say something to your maker for Darnell to get better.

I said it last time I wrote and I'll say it again. Listen to Jedi Mind Tricks. The name alone is enough if your a star wars fan. I <3 Darth Vadar. 

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I'm listening to them right now and their music is what I need right now. Their music has the right amount of everything I am feeling right now.

So with that..... I'm out to veg out to some really groovin tunes.

Movie: 40 yr old Virgin

Song: Kublia Khun - Jedi Mind Tricks