It has been like 14 days since my last entry. So much has happened.  Let me fill you in:

I didn't have to go to the dreaded family picnic. That was a miracle. I *****ed and complained about not wanting to drive due to the horrid gas prices and everyone understood. That was awsome.

Then I almost had a major break down due to the worst week to date. I am not even going to get into what happened, but I somehow made it.

This past weekend I went to the wedding of my little brother Danny. He's not my blood brother, but I've know him since we were potty trained. It was a really nice wedding. But it was even better because I got to see Russ.

If you know me, then you know all about my V.C Andrews type love story.  If you don't know me then let me explain .

I meet Russ when I was in 10th grade (I'm 28 now).  I fell in love with him and him with me, but we could not have a relationship due to me being a different race and it was intense. Too intense for a bunch of high school kids. So we made a pact to always be friends. He did his thing, I did mine. Whatever. Well last year I ran into his brother, Mike, at Danny's engagement party and his brother proceeds to tell me that he thought that Russ and I would be married by now. I was floored.

So I went home, thought about the converstation with Mike and decided that it was now or never. So I got mike's #, got Russ' # and called him.  Let me tell you the conversation we had was awsome. We caught up with each other and it was great. Well a year passed and Russ slipped under my radar. But I guess that was a good thing because I was able to tie up lose ends and finally realise that I was still head over heels, crazy in love with Russ. Which brings the story to this weekend. Mike was in Dan's wedding so as I walked into the church, I was so happy to see him and of course the first thing I asked was "How is Russ?" Mike was like "he's in the church, I'll take you to him." (imagine that walk down the isle, I swear I didn't breath)  I looked over and there he was, all grown up. I had not seen him for almost 10 years. He looked great, same Russ from back in the day, I spent the whole day with him at the wedding and reception and he went back to a friends house with me. We finally got to talk and we finally KISSED!!!!  This was by far the best kiss I have ever had in my life. There I was wrapped in his arms, and it felt so right. So Right!

So this is where I am. Sitting at my desk at work, ignoring the phone to finally write my happy, sappy love story. Russ and I are going to see each other soon. Nothing is offical yet, but I am pretty sure that the 2 of us, after all that has gone on in each of our lives, will let the other slip away again.  We have major hurdles to overcome. 1 being the fact that I live in another state. But I was planning on moving back to my home state anyway, I'm just pushing up my plans. I hate being so far from my friends anyway. I just hope that my V.C Andrews love story doesn't turn out like V.C Andrews novels do. That would totally suck, yet I'd be ok with it. Why you ask? Because I know he loves me, and God Forbid something happen, I at least have the kiss and his love for eternity.

It is really funny how life is. I think about the past 10 years and I can remember all the times my thoughts wound up on Russ. There was this one time that Russ and I went on a camping mission to N.H.  I say mission because we were there to see the sites and come home with fire works for a 4th of July party. Good Times.

No wonder I have had the worst love life ever, my heart knows exactly where it belongs. Normally I end each blog with a song (which I dedicate to Russ)  and movie, but in honor of recent events I leave you with a book.

Song: Cupid - Jack Johnson

Book: Rain (trilogy) V.C Andrews

also, to not be insensitive to the world around me, I want to wish all the Katrina people and people fleeing from Rita "Good Luck & God Speed"

And

I want to send a CONGRATS to Mike & Sha on their baby boy soon to make his way to this world  AND to Kelly Slater for his win at the Boost Mobile Pro this past weekend (#7 here he comes!!)

And (I'm just too happy right now, it is sick) I want to Thank God.

ok, now I'm done and the weekend is calling. PEACE OUT!