good morning world. after a very restless night, i was able to fall asleep i think around 4 AM. i have no idea how i dragged myself to work at 7 AM. (well ten minutes late as usual. lol). even with a broken heart i'm still able to maintain my perfect attendance. yay for me. lol. spent the latter part of the night listening to songs from "my sassy girl" ( i know... i'm becomming obsessed but it does have a beautiful soundtrack, as with most korean movies and dramas).

 its 30 minutes into the shift and i'm just still goofing off. the first thing i did was make me a fresh cup of pear juice. the christmas pears we received are getting ripe so i peeled a few slices and added sugar and hot water to it in a cup. very tasty... hey its an asian thing. lol. it was kinda painful for me but i proceeded to empty out my computer. gone are the images which have sustained me for these few months. it looks so strange gazing at an empty desktop again. i don't believe in keeping momento's once a relationship is over. everything is thrown away or conveniently stored where i wont easily find them. even my playlist of beautiful songs have been deleted. i'm just now trying to psyche myself up to get ready for the rap and hip-hop mode again. angry music helps me to move on with my life. people at work can tell what kind of mood i'm in by the music that i choose to play. after a few days they will start asking me how my fiance in asia is doing. gonna be hard to tell them that i'm single again. i remember what it was like after alexandra broke up with me. it was a really hard place to come to work because everyone knew of my love and devotion to her. i think this time it's gonna be worse because i had a definate date.

 oh wells... thats my fault for being overly consumed with someone when i love them. i just have to suck it up and take it like a man.

 please forgive me for my bad attitude and try to have a wonderful day everyone.