how quickly things change overnight! this is really turning into an episode from the twilight zone. everything seems so surrealistic. i normally should be spending a comfortable saturday night chillin at home, instead i'm gonna crash out here at a homeboy's house. it seems as if i'm just a prisoner in my own life. one awesome thing about emails and blogs is that with just one click of a button, you can make shiet disappear as if it never happened. bothersome photos? no problem... click.. and they're gone. one can almost erase a chapter from one's life by doing this. but how do you erase memories? can you google erasing memories? are there any self help books out there? a friend told me recently that only when you are truly alone can you find enlightenment. i swear that she is blessed cause she always seem to pop up after every major crisis in my life. she disappeared for 2 years cause she said she needed to find herself. am i strong enough to do the same or shall i be weak and give into the dark side again? it's so easy to give into temptation. we are surrounded by the easy solutions to our problems everyday. maybe thats why lots of people turn to drugs, alcohol, and sex.

 oh wells... the internal struggling shall continue for a little bit longer. i just need some time alone to sort things out as best i can.

ciao