this is the second attempt in trying to write this entry. i just got through typing a long-assed blog but hit the wrong button and lost it all. bleh.. i had written alot of good stuff in it and am not sure i can recapture what i felt when i first wrote it. this one might not be quite as long as the original but here it goes...

 the point of no return.

pretty much all of my decisions have been made and there's no hope or desire to turn back time. i am happy and i have become "nice". sure every now and then flashes of the badboy still comes out but its been getting pretty rare. sorry i havent been keeping up with the blogs as in the past but lately i have been just so happy.

 i cant believe that a few months ago i was at the lowest point in my life. i really felt so alone and with much pent up anger and frustration. i had no one to tell all of my problems to. starting this blog was the smartest thing that i've ever done. in blog world i dont have to always worry about how i look and act. i dont even have to care about how stupid and gay i can be. all i have to do is write wutever's in my head and vent everything thats been eating away at me. now i have 2 really good friends that i talk to everynight and the best gf in the world who loves me as much as i love her. recently i'm finding that i dont have enough hours in the day to do what i want to do. sometimes i talk with my friends so long that i barely get more than 3 hours sleep a night. believe me... i wouldnt have it any other way.

 ms. drama queen.... thanks for everything u've done to me and i love you lots! it was a great idea also signing up for roadrunner. i mean i dont even watch any tv now. all of my information i can get from online. missed my favorite tv show?? no problem.. i can prolly download it. wanna see the latest movies.. also not a problem cause its available if u know where to find it.

 34 more days and if all goes well, i'll be on my way to asia again. gosh its been so long since i've been to that part of the world. i'm kinda scared but also full of excitement for the prospects of finally coming face to face with my baby. hopefully she'll still love me after seeing me. lol. hey what can i say.. that stupid webcam makes me look better than i actually am. so if ur ugly.. just pay top dollar for a good webcam when doing chat. lol. anyways... kisses for my baby and hugs to everyone else that needs it. keep the faith and peace out.

 to end this blog on a serious note.....

i just saved alot of money on my car insurance.