really boring nite last nite. my damn gall stones still acted up all day, but is getting better. was in hip hop mood so downloaded alot of chingo bling and choppaholix. its screw music if ur not familiar with it. screw is when they slow down a song til it gets all distorted and shiet. anyways... finally fixed my damn pc tower so i can burn dvds again. i cant believe that i havent watched any dvd's in almost 2 weeks. wuts bad is that i cant even remember wut i've been doing since i wasnt watching dvds. nothing was on the tube so decided to mess around online. hahahaha... a couple of canadian stoners were doing webcam chat. they were firing up their bongs and shiet. dude i really miss giving up weed. would've been a blast chillin wit those crazie dudes. anyways... i had me a coupla of vodkas and oj so was feeling pretty good and went on cam also. guess i really looked like one of them cause they be askin me lots of shiet about weed since i lived in texas. really tempted to buy me another bag since my drug test is over. i basically was fightin wit myself all day whether to call or not. like i said in my earlier blogs... i'm always confused on when to call or not to call a chick. thugs cant seem too over-anxious u know. gotta keep up my rep and play it cool. forealz i've been sounding more like a dork wit her lately. its like after i call her then i wanna kick myself in the ass for sounding so stupid. in public i always try and maintain this persona. i dont talk much and always dress and look thugged out. but deep down i like to play around and joke alot. gosh, such a contradiction. its the same with everything about me. always fighting with myself. yin and yang. good versus evil. basically i think i just turn stupid when i like someone. arrrrghh. gotta get a grip on myself! all i know is that i wanna go to new mexico really, really bad!

 aite thats all i got. yall take karez and peace out.