well i guess i'm slowing down the blogs cause i guess the person that left a comment that my blogs were rubbish really hurted my feelings. lolz. nah.. the real reason is that absolutely nothing has been going on with my life since the last entry. i mean my tv pc crapped out so i havent been able to watch wuts been going on in the world. just been reading other peep's blogs and leaving comments if i have any. gosh alot of us really have all kinds of drama in our lives. too bad we cant all get together and chill over a couple of pitchers of margaritas. lol. i dont know why but most of the ineresting blogs are from women. i guess we guys have a tendency to hold things in. mainly interested in reading blogs from peeps in other countries. no matter where we are, we all seem to be facing the same turmoil.

 if i talk about women alot its just because i think i'm searching for someone so i can channel and devote all of my love to and also to take away from the pain of my recent breakup. i'm not a pimp by all means. i think i'm one of the most faithful guys that i know, relationship wise. with women i like i'm extremely shy. with women i really dont have any attraction to, i'm quite friendly. its like the women i like cant believe i'm so shy when they see me interact with women that are just homegirls.

  i hate being a whiner so try and write about stuff that happens instead of crying over a woman over and over again. all crying does is just make me feel more miserable than i already am, so i try and move on with my life. okies... enuff with this looking internally stuff and see wuts happening with me tonite...

 well i'm supposed to go out with one of my homegirls tonite. not really holding my breath cause she's already stood me up many times already. had a pretty nice talk to the new chick at work today. we've been kinda teasing each other for the past couple of weeks. she's always saying that she's so tired at work cause she's been going out everynight. so it makes me think of her as being a ho. lolz. mah bad but forealz thats wut i thought! but today she finally let slip that she had a part time job cleaning offices after work. wow. my respect for her jumped up like 5 notches when i heard that. she's a single mum. i think her daughter is 9 years old. also today i found out that she loves baking. i spent 15 minutes just listening to her talk about the different kinds of cakes that she's baked for her family members on special occasions. i love hearing ppl talk about stuff that they're really passionate about. i told her my fav is yellow cake with chocolate fudge frosting.if she can bake that for me, i'd gladly pay her $10 for it. i'm not such a fan of american cakes. wayyyy too sweet for me. i love french and european style cakes. they arent quite as sweet. alexandra's mum makes the most delicious almond cake i've ever tasted. makes my mouth drool just thinking about it. anyways...i didnt know that much about the chick at work but i did know she has an old maxima with a broken rear window that wont roll up. since her window was broken, everytime it rains she would ask me to manually pull the window up for her so her interior wont get wet. i've been keeping a low profile with her cause my homeboy frankie's got a krush on her. she's got such beautiful eyes. but she's kinda dizzy. everyone at work thinks she's kinda slow. but gosh.. if u worked 2 jobs and was a fulltime mom you'd be kinda slow also. anyways... i think she's cool.

 i volunteered for OT tomorrow. its been awhile since we had the chance for OT so i better take advantage of it while we have it. today was such a pleasant day. looks like the weekend is gonna be the same. i would really like to spend some time outdoors this weekend. soon it will be too cold and dreary to enjoy. fall is my favorite time of the year. cool but not cold. i think i'm just gonna cook me a little something special for myself tonite instead of just warming up sausages and eating it with just rice like i've been doing every single day. maybe a spicy thai dish or something. kinda regretting dropping class cause it was my only chance for interacting with others. been thinking about getting a part time job in a restaurant. it'd be good to talk with customers everyday. no matter how hard i try and make myself out to be... i really enjoy meeting new ppl. hahaha.. i'm always such a contradiction.

 think i'm just gonna chill at home tonite and watch the new korean dvd's that just arrived. gosh i'm really getting lazy. take karez and peace out.