3 cheers for an idiot...

hip hip hooray!!! sometimes i just amaze myself at how much of an idiot i can be. called up alexandra earlier. made some small talk. can tell that something was bothering her even tho she didnt wanna say it. asked her if she had a busy day yesterday cause she asked me not to call her. "oh nothing really" she said. light bulb went off in my head. hmmm... she asked me not to call her yet she really didn't have a busy day. oh gosh, u know wut i forgot to ask her? this idiot forgot to ask her if she's still seeing the guy she had an "affair" with. "yes" she says, she's still seeing him. *jaw drops... mouth opens wide*. hahahaha... it was pretty funny. just like a scene from a comedy or something. "how many affairs have u had?" she asked...meaning since we broke it off. "only one" i said. wow... exactly like a really bad movie script. i was seeing myself in third person and i really cracked myself up cause i looked so comical at that moment. i make my apologies for intruding myself upon her. "you're always running away" she says. "not running away, only showing respect" i said. "if i had a gf i wouldn't like it if her ex called her" i said. thankfully the phonecard ran out soon after that. talk about your very awkward situation.

 guess its time to pack up all traces of her like i do with all my exes. at least i finally have some closure. its funny how egostical we can sometimes be, thinking someone will wait for us forever.

 this movie is over... time to roll the credits...