I guess we can't escape the past as easily as we both wanted to. The phone call from you was completely unexpected. Even though it lasted less than 2 minutes and was such a small gesture, nevertheless it really meant alot to me. In another month it would have been 2 years since we've seen each other yet everytime I hear your voice I still can see you in my mind's eye as clearly as if it was only yesterday. The problem is, and will always be that we shared and experienced too much with each other. Everything we went through together was carelessly tossed aside, feelings covered up in denial, memories shoved back into the darkest recesses of our minds. Putting the blame on each other and time it seems has diminished the memories and emotions very little. If only we were given a few more months surely things would have turned out differently. I think our deepest regret will be that we each could have, should have, been more patient and tolerant. Austin is not the same. I am not the same. Neither of our lives will ever be the same. I can never thank you enough for everything that you have done for me and I will never forget the lessons you have taught me about life and love. I wish you a happy life, Alexandra.
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