i can't believe its almost july. we have just passed the midpoint of another year and what do i have to show for it? i have a newer car, an ipod, new flat panel monitors, a new laptop and computer. do i feel fulfilled? not hardly. have i gained more wisdom? i feel slightly wiser, yes. have i done anything this year to improve the world? *thinking*.... no. yes, i have material things but i am missing the most important thing of all. every day i come home to a quiet apartment. when i go shopping, i go alone. when i go out to dinner, it's usually a table for one. i fear i am becoming too accustomed to my solitude to the point that i lack the desire for human companionship. my only interaction with people is when i go to work and am exposed to a handfull of the same people. the only pleasure i get is when i allow myself to call my girl, 15 minutes a day. 15 minutes, such a miniscule amount of time in a 24 hour period.
another month passes... soon another year will pass as well. perhaps another piece of my humanity is passing also.
i need someone to save me before i completely lose all feelings and become the robot i once was told that i was.
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