i've just finished watching a british movie about a group of teens in london called "kidulthood". it's a very raw movie in its depiction of violence, sex, drugs, and the various cliques which kids belong to. a movie like that kind of makes u think about what can go on out there in the real world. this young chick was constantly bullied by other girls that she finally couldn't take it and hung herself. another chick doesnt even flinch to give a drug dealer a blowjob in front of everyone just to score some drugs and money for shopping. later on she offers to f*ck with a group of guys cause she wanted to party and even offers to take it up the ass with one of them. all of this from a 15 year old chick. it seems kids are growing up so fast nowdays. half the stuff they're exposed to wasn't available when i was growing up. u were doing good to score some alcohol and if u got ahold of weed u were the ****. to find a girl u can make out with was a huge accomplishment. i don't know how realistic the movie was but i think it was quite close to the truth. i've met some young chicks who has been exposed to way too much for their age.drugs are so easy to get that the movie also is quite credible in that aspect as well. we all read about violence every day in the newspaper and see it on the tv and movies. sometimes watching something like that really makes me feel old. it seems not so long ago i embraced that lifestyle and culture.

is this a sign that i am finally growing up?